Life routinely demands unorthodox thought, abstract vision, inspirational insights and artistic action. Through God's grace, and with the support of incredible family and friends, 99% of the time I'm managing to write my life's story with poise, style and my own original flare, but still there are those days when despite my best efforts, the creative juices just don't flow...
Wednesday, August 25
And it all comes down to this...
Summer 2010 has been a whirlwind of greatness! Last night I calculated that over my 3+ months in Louisville, I've put somewhere in the 15,000 mile range on the "little, black Monte Carlo," and I'm proud to say I don't regret a mile!
Working with KSF YAP has been a spectacular experience and is an opportunity that I'm beyond thankful to have had! This program has so much potential and I'm confident that the YOUth of Kentuckiana will continue to grow this awesome entity. (Obviously there are still four days left of the 2010 Kentucky State Fair) and YAP's biggest event - Battle of the Bands - is yet to come! If you have time, definitely stop by the tent, ask about FREE T-shirts and buttons, the Ultimate Photo Booth and the ALL NEW KSF Fan Bandz (our custom silly bands!) I'm currently sporting my green rabbit! YAP truly does offer something for everyone, and I'd love to see as many people as possible take advantage! Shameless plugging... who, me?
In addition to 37.5 hours per week hanging out at the KEC, I've managed to fill my "free-time" -what's that?- with more than my fair share of adventure and memory making with the best family and friends anyone could ever ask for! From celebrating my grandparents' 50th Anniversary (I hope I get to see that milestone in my own life!), to fearlessly (or at least with a lot less fear than I had six months ago) rapalling in Red River Gorge, to savoring memories of a very special "gone-home" Saint of God who's impact on my life, and many others, will never be forgotten, to sleeping in just about ANY desperate setting imaginable (including, on occasion, my car), to reconnecting with a million old friends (and even family - you should meet my Aunt Thumb!) and making dozens of wonderful new ones... it's definitely been a ride worth taking. A good friend recently noted that every year somehow manages to be better than the last. She's right. I remember thinking that my high school summers of traveling softball teams and memorized TV schedules would always be my favorite, and then a summer spent traveling the state/eastern continent with 10 of my favorite people topped the charts followed by months of life changing work at KY FFA camp, and yet somehow I'm continually blessed to live a life of never-ceasing awesomeness!
Alas... in true word-obsessed Me fashion, enjoy some of my favorite quotes from Summer 2010:
1. Why are you mean muggin'? You're the one looking like a Golden Retriever!
2. It'll eat.
3. THAT IS A FORD FOCUS! (and numerous other Katt Williams classics!)
4. Something in the basement growled at me!
5. You like pickled eggs?
6. Are you wearing underwear? (just realized that this quote has occurred on multiple occasion)
7. Here Am I... Send Me.
8. Do you wanna be exclusive?
9. Hey buddy... you want some Doritos?
10. Kacie just donated me a mirror...
...there are far too many more to list!
The remainder of 2010 already proves to have me constantly on the go, and I can't imagine living and loving my life in any more fitting fashion. Though I can hardly fathom that my senior year of college has ALREADY begun, I'm chomping at the bit to relish every last taste of Murray State University - of 100s (or hopefully more) new friends, out-of-my-comfort-zone experiences and jam-packed days before embarking on a lifetime of whatever fantastic journey God has in store! Thus far it's been remarkable...
P.S. 5 Things I've Learned from the Kentucky State Fair
1. (2) Krispy Kreme Donut + (1) Hamburger + (X) Bacon Slices = FABULOUS IDEA!
2. Even the quickest jaunt through the hog barn leaves a lingering odor on your clothes...
3. Be nice to Security. They know people.
4. Don't share a remote trailer with an elephant. (And no... that's not a fat joke.)
5. WATCH YOUR STEP!
Peace, Love and Nachos (B/C They are my Favorite Fair Food!)
-Ashlee
Thursday, July 22
"That there is an R.V."
Monday, July 12
What ever happened to those blue robes, anyway?
Melody Makers = the 1990's Children's Choir of Bellview Baptist Church. We're talking somewhere between 30-50 kiddos from ages 3-14ish, fully decked out in blue robes with white monogrammed ?stoles? (I really don't know what else to call the overgrown handkerchief that Velcroed around my neck - one girl really did blow her nose on it during a performance once...) all fully armed with an impressive track list and prepared to belt out tunes choir style or solo at a moments notice! This was no small fete for the two ladies who so bravely conducted our motley crew (and even hosted one MASSIVE camp-out that probably left several of us in trouble for any number of things...)
For a bunch of Baptist boys and girls (with a few Methodists added to our harmony), I must admit that we weren't half bad. Sunday and Wednesday nights while our parents attended preaching/prayer groups/Bible Study, we practiced hard! No pizza or playground until every note had reached perfection (try doing that with a bunch of puberty-stricken preteens). Somehow though, we managed to learn more songs than I could possibly remember and most of us picked up a love for Southern Gospel music that you don't find among too many - now 17-25 - year-olds.
I'm willing to bet any fellow Melody Maker could hear any of the following phrases, and pick up right where we left off some... ?TEN? years ago. (For those of you who can't, utilize YouTube and you, too, can (re)learn some awesome tunes!)
"Out of His great love, he picked me up..."
"I need you like flowers need the sunshine..."
"Everybody outta know..."
"Who can do, who can do, who can do anything..."
"Soon and very soon..."
Bottom line: at the mere age of 7, I was perhaps the best performer I've ever been. Backed by a multitude of friends (some participants more willing than others), confident in my instructors' preparations, and assured by the words in the songs I sung, I never thought twice about standing in front of the masses -err... 250 people in a BBC Homecoming service- and being proud of my passion.
So what happened? Somewhere on our road to rivaling the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir, Melody Makers lost it's luster. Other extra-curriculars somehow replaced nights spent practicing vocal solos and on-beat hand claps, and by the time I hit middle school, our robes were hitting most of us at the knees. For whatever reasons, the group disbanded. There really isn't a sob story attached. We don't all hate each other and most of us are still active in Church (probably largely thanks to those early influences). Some of us take the occasional opportunity to sing on our own or with a few buds. Alls well that ends well. Just a bunch of kids who grew up in an era of a pretty good thing.
I, not realizing it so much until... well, now, owe a great bit to Melody Makers. Among the most lasting of those impressions:
1.) An avid love for Pizza!
2.) Respect for any woman (and particularly THE WOMAN) who can hem (and re-hem) THAT MANY blue robes and never complain once!
3.)The realization that coming in on the wrong cue happens... rather frequently... and at the end of the "show," you still get lots of hugs and candy.
4.) Knowledge that when you absolutely go blank on your words, MAKING THEM UP is not always the best option.
5.) Gaining the ability to Stand/Speak/Sing before a crowd and not be the kid with wet pants...
6.) And, all jokes aside, maintaining an avid love for and becoming a PROUD-to-be fan of Southern Gospel Music, and an EVEN MORE PROUD-to-be Christian.
We're all grown up. Some are married, a few have kids, one or two are now serving our country, the youngest are just graduating high school, we're all fighting to get and keep jobs, and whatever path each of us have chosen, there is little doubt in my mind that we aren't all thankful for this part of our history. If you were a Melody Maker, you knew how to have fun, you knew how to sing (slightly) on cue, you know that your faith is the most important decision you could ever make, and you sure as heck know that you'd better not EVER blow your nose on that darned white thing!
Friday, July 9
Ode to my Allergies...
Quite frankly, there are days when I absolutely HATE my allergies. In fact, a few days ago when I walked around my office looking like I'd just gone through a bad breakup -puffy red eyes, tear stained cheeks, tissues coming out of every nook and cranny- that was one of those days. But then there are times, like now, when I realize, accept and am somewhat thankful that they are just another way God managed to set me apart. (How many people can say they reacted to 60 of 66 tested allergens? Granted that was back in '95 before all this new-fangled technology managed to find a gazillion more possible reasons for my skin to turn red and itchy and for breathing to become and Olympic event... but who's counting?)
In some crazy, roundabout way, I suppose I'm saying what we all know... Everyone is different. I may question why I can almost sneeze on cue, or why my eyes are two different shapes, or why my hair frizzes no matter what they weather or any other aspect of what makes me who I am. But quite frankly, I choose to believe that there is reason in everything. There's a purpose for every talent, for every flaw, for everything friendship, for every breakup, for every scar... you get it.
I'm the type of person that needs reason. I crave closure. But as a good friend recently pointed out, if you have closure for everything in life, what's the point in continuing to live? I comfort myself with reassurances that I'm just not meant to know everything - yet! Does it really matter why my left foot is bigger than my right; that my 2nd toe extends farther than my 1st? Do I really have to understand why my relationship with friend A is totally different than with friend B? Why I am geared to try so hard in certain areas (MOST sports, writing, relationship building) and couldn't care less about others (science, golf)? Does it really matter?
Nah... But there again, I guess agonizing over wanting to know everything is just another one of those traits that make me... Me. :-)
Please excuse me while I go find a tissue...
Monday, June 28
So... do you like pickled eggs?
Are you smiling? Cause I'm smiling. :-) The human mind never ceases to amaze me. The things we remember, meaningless to most - as those quotes probably are to you - trigger a wealth of emotion. See, THOSE quotes bring with them the shock of COLD creek water swelling against my legs, the whoops and laughs and looks of fright accompainied by a few daring four-wheeler rides, the reassurance of being surrounded -picked on, laughed with, punched and hugged- by good friends and the serenity of retiring the day on a blanket under a star-filled sky.
But my delve back into Smalltown, USA did more than re-kindle the flame for home that I sometimes ignore. A few days of limited cell service, incredible sleep deprivation and a whopping amount of time outdoors reaffirmed a fact I'm still learning to accept: Given the chance, people will surprise you! The person you thought you could never like, is actually really nice. The guy you'd summed up as "blue collar," has a brilliant head on his shoulders. People you might have considered lowly or desolate, are always the first to lend a hand. The toughest man you've ever met still won't get his boots wet in a creek. And the friend you knew to be absolute "High Society," is about as 'cuntry' as they come.
Life = Perceptions. Is he or she good enough? Do they wear the right clothes, eat the coolest food, listen to the best music, drive the attention-grabbing car? WHO CARES? Why aren't we concerned with, "Do they make a difference?"; "Are they doing something worthwhile with their life?"; "Can I help them, not to change their look or style or values, but to simply be a better them?"
My Smalltown, USA soapbox is a cousin to my stance on Perceptions of American Agriculture. More of late, publics are subjected to efforts to ruin the image of American farmers, to downplay their importance to the world's livelihood and to eventually wipeout the hard-work, disciplined, family core values that us Smalltown Advocates hold dear. I'm proud to say that the KSF YAP Adult Project has developed an awesome way to get Young Adults involved in the fight against these injustices. The Discovery Farm Video Contest (click on this blog title for more info) allows YOU to tell YOUr story about Kentucky Animal Agriculture. From "Sheering Sheep" to "Milking Cows" to "Economics of a Livestock Project," educating our national public about the safe practices, necessity and committment involved in KY Ag is literally the first step to generating a positive global PERCEPTION.
You've been given the chance. Now surprise me.
And could someone pass the pickled eggs?
Thursday, June 24
SQUARE Dancing My Way to the Top???
No, that's not a testament to my extremist feminism; in fact, we've got what some might consider a true estrogen ocean - los senors are in significant minority. Besides, I'm not even all that partial to pink. I could deal with blue, green, yellow, purple, red... anything really. Anything, that is, that might offer the slightest hope of stimulating creativity. Seriously... just a little bit of feng shui... is that too much to ask?
Alas, until my wishful thinking becomes State Government reality, I've taken to "creativity boosting" in Freedom Hall. Generally it's quiet, comfortable and spacious (ya think?) It's filled with many of my most amazing FFA memories -i.e. the first time I witnessed a sea of blue stand and recite "To practice brotherhood, honor agricultural opportunities and responsibilities, and develop those qualities of leadership which an FFA member should possess," - plus a plethora of awesome basketball and NQC moments. I've heard astonishing speeches, witnessed back-breaking dunks and seen thousands of people moved by a gospel song, but I'm not sure anything comes close to the muse I found today!
The Square Dancer's Convention has come to town! Smack dab in the center of Freedom Hall, a school of 20 or so quite enthusiastic dancers were tapping their hearts out, handing off partners and making me rather dizzy, all to the beat of an (?)impressive(?) country remix I'd never heard. :-/ Still, jokes aside, these guys (and gals) were good, and not just by my CLUELESS standards. The longer I watched, in awe, I realized that these weren't the.... tactful word.... (?)senior(?) ladies and gents I've seen (and chatted with) throughout the KEC over the past few days. Rather, these talented dancers were obviously high schoolers (at the oldest), full of excitement at the thrill of performing in such a prestigious venue! What an awesome thing to have such a desire and commitment to something so early on in life.
It's all chocked up in one word: PASSION. Along with my fellow 08-09 Kentucky FFA State Officers, I spent of year of my life campaigning for the 14,000+ members across our state to rise to one simple challenge: "Ignite Your Passion." But over a year after our "retirement" -great to achieve that at such a young age, eh?- it occurs to me that we are all continually learning to Seek, Ignite and Fuel our passions on a daily basis. And little do we know just how integral a part we play in that endeavour for those around us. I'm ever thankful for those individuals who, though they may not realize it, consistently encourage my dreams, guide my efforts, admonish my transgressions and literally shape my being. :)
Besides triggering my inner philosopher -hey, these kids know PASSION at an early age!- the Square Dancer's sparked a considerable bit of creativity, and thus it's back to the drawing board -err, Dell- in the still tragically colorless office (minus Brenda's -dwindling- stash of gumballs!), blasting Pandora on the iPhone as I work to bring YOU the most awesome Young Adult Project YOU have ever seen! (Easy enough... since it's gonna be the ONLY "YAP" you've ever seen!)
As for me, it's time to refocus. Battle of the Bands contacts. Check! Ultimate Photo Booth props. Check! Now I wonder who I should talk to about installing a window above my desk... or maybe I'll just move my desk to Freedom Hall and start hollerin' PROMENADE!
Monday, June 21
Living Life with Regard to Abe, Dolly and Pa...
Abe's always been my favorite president; maybe because I'm a bit of a history nerd and the Civil War Era pretty much consumes my interest. Not that I'm all that obsessed with the North vs. South issues. I just love the time period. Life of those long ago days appears simple, rustic and drenched in hard work, peppered with intense pride in family values and devout belief in 48,000 different causes - take your pick! Best of all, the country was on the brink of abundant development, and if you consider the rush of expansion, technology, population growth, etc. that has followed, the Civil War was ironically a "calm before the storm." Of course, Abe had that tall, lanky appeal to him as well. Sigh...
Sometimes I wonder if we ever really know whether we're living in the "calm" or in the "storm." Obviously, a bad day feels storm-like for a bit, but a few years down the road will what happens today really be a big deal? Who knows? Well, He knows. But YOU know what I mean... right?
If I had to guess, I'd say these days I'm living in the calm. Thank goodness, because anyone that knows me well is very aware of my irrational terror when it comes to storms. My life's weather forecast, for a setting somewhere in fog covered mountains carved out by crystal clear streams and blanketed by a purple star filled sky -hmmm... no wonder I'm also a HUGE Dolly Parton fan- would grant me mostly days of sunshine, a cloud or two here and there, and of course, the occassional rain shower. But as the song goes, "along with the sunshine, there's gotta be a little rain sometimes."
Life's latest gust of wind has dropped me in Louisville, KY for the summer, where I'm happily employed by the Kentucky State Fair Board. Working specifically with the Young Adult Project (YAP) I get to spend my days emmersed in social media -living it up on Facebook, Twitter and MySpace- in effort to help Kentucky's young adults make KSF 2010 their absolute favorite yet! I'm so pumped about the ALL NEW Battle of the Bands, the Ultimate Photo Booth, YOUth Vote Day, Friday Night Dance parties and a million other fantastic projects we've got going that are going to absolutely ROCK YOUR SOCKS! We announce new contests and events constantly on Facebook, so definitely check it out! Best of all, I've already met so many fantastic people (both at work and YAP participants statewide!) I can't wait to hang out with everyone during State Fair (if they'll let me out of my office, that is!)
Alas, I'll be hard pressed to ever follow Abe's advice and eventually outgrow my grandpa (who I legitimately think is the coolest guy in the world, but hey, I might be a tad partial.) But I'm certainly working on it...